I got back last week from a ten day trip riding solo in my rental car up the coast of California. It was SO AMAZING!!!!! It was like being on another planet. The air, the sun, the people, the life that exists there is like nothing I have ever experienced before. It changed my life FOREVER!!!! I feel more confident being who I am on the inside and letting that show. This is the Californian way. Let your creativity, your soul, your true self shine.
I met a man with a stuffed animal tiger which he would use so gracefully – his ventriloquism was such a strong channel. In the parking lot he blessed me with a crown of Buddha, and said I had taken the Master’s seat at my own table, and I was commander now of my life and my present moment.
I tried to rest on the beach one evening before starting the longest stretch of the coastal highway which was planning the next day. My groceries had started to rot and I was feeling the first pangs of loneliness then. There were a lot of flies. I went to wade in the water and when I turned around a minute later to see dozens of seagulls attacking my groceries. I was so tired and just wanted to rest a little. I let them squawk at me.
I’ll never forget the ocean and the thinness of the air as I passed through the winding road up the Pacific Coast highway. I felt like one of the Jetsons zipping around the little turns in my car-turned-spaceship, hovering between different mountains – many different planets, really. That’s the power of the aridness, the desert, and the dry land, so vast.
I was depressed a bit in San Francisco, having just accomplished my goal of driving through Big Sur, what I had always looked forward to and then waking up alone in the late morning to a cold kitchen. That day I only noticed the sad people, the drug addicts, and the dirt of Haight street wondering why there was so much suffering and sadness in people’s hearts. Feeling that all the things in the windows of the shops were purposeless and wastes of money. I kept walking until I had crossed the whole city.
I stopped for a good coffee and a long conversation with my journal. Then I kept walking to the Ferry building where I sat on the water. There were people boarding the ferry so I just looked like another passenger. The sounds of diners at a fancy restaurant were behind me. I basked in the glow of the lights dancing on the water from the bridge until I had to relinquish my seat to escape from a drunk man looking for a lonely person to talk to.
I went to different shops and grocers and saw how the people were. A wild man on Melrose outfitted me in some unique streetwear from his party-wear shop and then said “I’ll never see you again, give me a hug before you leave.”
The man who owned the gem shop on Santa Monica boulevard in L.A. told me he quit his job in New York City as a highly paid fashion designer in a well-recognized fashion house to open up a gem store in LA with prized gems, crystals and jewelry. He did it all over the course of two months.
He said “If you were to tell me I would leave everything to start something I loved to do and was passionate about like crystals, and owning a shop talking about and giving crystal readings to people I would have told you you were crazy. Now I wake up every day and I thank God that I get to do this every day.”
Those words were exactly what I needed to hear for my travels. I needed to heal this sense of scattered and broken purpose in my life and why all the other parts of my life seemed to get in the way of pursing it.
Yet the more we use it the more smoothly life works out. It’s a strong motivator to get the love we deserve, the life we desire. It’s what anchors us to the people in life we are meant to serve. It is setting us up on a beautiful trajectory to receive now and in the future to fulfill our wildest dreams.
That’s what this trip was for me really, something that I knew deep in my heart I wanted to affirm in my life experience. I didn’t wait for anyone, I knew what I needed and I went after it. I had to let go of my expectations, my fears, my friends, and all of my faults and weaknesses in full trust that this would be a trip, an experience, that would meet me perfectly where I was, and energetic match to fuel my purpose.