The World Is a Vampire

“Set to Draiiaiain.” (The Smashing Pumpkins)
As a young girl I had a Grossology book about all the real-life gross things kids would love to be introduced to to tell their friends on the playground.  Things like a man eating his own metal bicycle (the chain was the best part), weird things animals did in nature. None of them grossed me out except for the one about Tapeworms. I still remember the enormous pink, red and white tapeworm drawn to frame the whole page. It terrified me. I read it with my friend in the bookstore coffeeshop not expecting what was there as we turned the page and it shocked the sh*t out of me.
All the times since then, when the parasite conversation has come up it’s called back this early trauma for me. I get so upset and so stressed out at the prospect of it all that I pretend that it doesn’t exist. Some of my friends in my healing communities have talked about their cleansing of parasites. I just blocked it from entering my awareness and hoped I was still ok.
I remember the worms I saw in my poo when I was 8 despite multiple bubble baths in the week after seeing that book. I was feeling too scared to acknowledge they were real and tell my parents. Only a young girl like me who would one day become a healer would get that freaked out about the illness possible in a human body. This idea inspired a lifetime fear.
This year, at age 31, I chose to do a Superfood 10-Day Transformation Cleanse because their detox regimen is not only super easy. I could still eat every two hours and feel nourished.

This is my first cleanse I have done because I have always been scared to fast. The Master Cleanse with that nasty lemonade didn’t seem nutritious. I read in Acupuncture school that fasting is not good for the chi or the blood. But more than that, I hated feeling hungry. In college people called me Big Hungry. When I became Gluten Free in 2011 I would freak out about the opportunity for my next Gluten Free meal. The anxiety would keep me from going out, or I would piss people off and delay plans by taking forever to cook my own at home before we went out – whereupon as soon as I could I would sit down and eat ALL of what I had cooked.

I couldn’t stop eating. I always had to eat a big big meal and not stop until the crackers, chips, bread was done or the plate was finished and my belly felt like it would explode.

Becoming Gluten Free and limiting sugar and dairy and other things over the years with the cutting edge nutritional knowledge I had in place from school and being in the wellness field gave me side effects of spins and dizziness, and digestive issues that all felt out of my control. These things would sometimes leave me bed ridden (if it was a migraine) or in a groggy fog and having no energy to do anything.  Agony, hunger, and weakness prevented me from getting detoxed to begin with. All these things and more that were due to another being living in my body, wanting the food for itself.

Parasites are Vampires. Ghosts. Most of us have a form of one or the other.

Let me explain.

Most people never think of parasites when they think of their health and chronic digestive, cognitive, and other issues. And many more people than that don’t think of parasites as living in our minds as part of the brain-gut connection or that something in our gut has something to do with our spirit and our ability to be our own Spirit.

Parasite is a bacteria, and it’s a quality of energy that has the same effect to us from a person or from our environment, a sucking out of our energetic life force. A being always looking for a host…

In my research on the Mayo Clinic and the CDC I found hundreds of different kind of bacteria cited as parasites in lists and genuses and species. And it got me to thinking, what other ‘parasites’ do we have around us??

Like a plague of dead rats rotting during The Black Plague, parasites can look like warms and swarms of little black bugs. Vermin. Worms. Toxicity that invade and erode everything they can get into.

Maybe this is one little thing I ate, or one news story I see, or one person I hung out with once last week. But what if they multiply in my mind and body? What if they overtake my ability to think and see clearly and make proper decisions in what I am ingesting? What if they change my brain so much (Chinese doctors called them “gu” which means the same thing about a spirit being within me: that I don’t act under my own guidance, my own channel. Instead I am channeling a shadow. Something else is taking control.

Negative thoughts are parasites. Negative groups, negative people are parasites of ours, stealing life. The national media infects stories of fear, rage, ego, and other lower energies to get us addicted so that we consume and keep consuming. Then, bogged down after a binge, our emotions, our mental state, and therefore our nervous systems are compromised. Therefore more likelihood we don’t have our guard up and can’t ward off more pests. They can get in easier.

This pattern gets embedded into our system so much so that we start to adopt the daily moods that collect around common feelings of depression, anxiety, feeling fat, incapable, and sorry for ourselves. This starts to be the norm. When we can’t get out of our own way to make a more nourishing, positive environment and situation for ourselves we give up. We eat more of what makes us sick. The sickness propagates. The sickness propagates other sicknesses. We feel we are stuck in a hole. There’s nothing to get us out of this mess. No hope left alive to keep a fire alive for your goals and dreams. No one to keep the fire of possibility and joy stoked (“Stoked!!”).

One example I noticed before going on the cleanse was I was slowly caring less and less about my appearance. I had put on weight since my travels and didn’t like my clothes. I stopped putting on make up, I stopped buying nice clothes for myself, and stopped caring how things looked. I started getting comfortable feeling and looking dumpy because I felt gross and dumpy inside. It was unconsciously not caring. I have never felt so low about myself in April and May about my body especially when it was the same things not working in my health and wellness before the cleanse, so having bad eating habits was okay because I knew it was no use anyway. I’m overstating this some about myself but you get the point.

As a practitioner when I treat other people, one of the first things gauging someone’s wellness is they start to put more care and effort into their appearance.  They start to have higher self esteem and self care, which is a kind of self love.

Over visits, and healing sessions (and superfoods cleanses) we learn to eliminate what’s no longer serving us, and to adopt and become what’s new in us. We feel different, and it’s hard to describe how in depth when you’ve let go of something huge that was living inside you.

I knew the cleanse was working because by end of June taking a high grade alkaline diet with the anti-parasite supplements was then Wham: starting to care of myself, to give a shit. I started wearing jewelry again. Then makeup. Then I started making outfits to wear most days. My hair got thicker and my complexion totally cleared up. I started feeling like I deserved better and I saw myself in a better light so cutting a lot of unnecessary things from of my life, my space, and my aura (vibes, vibes) was growing less and less of a problem.

People (who might have parasitic thoughts/parasites) get it turned around that to be unhappy is to be liked by everyone else, we don’t want to gloat, or be too good at something, or too prominent at something or else we are selfish and taking up too much room and too much attention.

This was another edge for me in the cleanse, coming up on my own threshold of happiness and how identified I was with a certain level or certain ‘appearance’ of what I saw ‘happiness’ as. Or ‘sadness,’ ‘slouchiness,’ ‘slovenliness’ that I gave off in the real world. A certain ‘way’ I was comfortable being seen.

Ten-days to completely turn this around.

After the horrible die-off in my brain Day 1 and 2 on this cleanse from all the toxins being released (was like a two day long headache and migraine), by day 7 I was feeling overall in a better and more upbeat mood. More positive. I had an abundance of energy and stamina to do things. I was getting a lot done in my day with clarity, love, and focus. I was greeting people with positivity and strength to help them through their health concerns and feeling positive and excited about the possibilities in my future.

I now take extra care to wash my hands after I pet my animals at home, washing my hands after the bathroom, and making sure all my foods are high quality grade, organic, and washed thoroughly before they enter my body.

I am also aware of taking better care of my body by eating cleaner food, caring for my food and how I prepare it. I’m also exercising more often (because I have so much more energy!), cleaning and washing more. In addition to higher quality food and working up a sweat, I also will have a shower, a salt bath, a sauna, a sage, or a crystal infused chakra clearing.

It was towards Day 8 and Day 9 of my cleanse after eliminating a ton of my bloating, endless hunger and digestive symptoms that I felt myself needing to take a long salt bath + crystal bath with a chakra clearing meditation to clean and clean and clean more. This was a very specific protocol that I stayed up late night to accomplish. After doing these two things in order I slept deeply and awoke feeling like a brand new person inside and out.

Determination paying off – Day 10.

It was Day 10 of my cleanse. Having taken such a positive step inside my energetic chakra system to clean the things up physically and energetically my last day I remember remarking how things I had been striving in work and in life were now flowing to me easily, showing up at the doorstep of my house. It was a totally reset and re-alignment into my future hopes and goals, as a new person.

We all have some kind of parasite. If it’s not from the pork, it’s from the media. People coming into the community clinic where I work are completely distraught – finding themselves ailing, weak, and feeble from reading and following the news every day. They are losing sleep over it, drinking too much, having too much sugar over it. Losing their minds. They are processing deep dark emotions over it. They ask me for help at the same time they are so addicted to the drama, hurt, and fear and go back and turn on their TV or other media outlet. And this is just one example, not talking about other “energy vampires” which deplete us and undervalue the good and well-meaning efforts we are doing for ourselves in others in life. Partners, co-workers, people who just don’t know better, strangers in the metro.

Action Steps

I forcing myself to acknowledge what I most feared by doing this cleanse. I saw the dis-ease I was carrying deep inside myself leave me. I saw the sickness that is there around us. Then I saw how it can get into us and affect us in so many ways. We must be discerning of what caliber of goods, food, and people we let in – the parasites we have to live every day.

The parasites are trying to convince us of something we’re not, eating away at our energy, confusing and disorienting us from who we really are, telling us we need to consume something that we really really don’t, keeping us bogged down and feeling trashy and consuming trash. Until we take radical action to cleanse ourselves, our bodies, our homes, and the varied media, people, and personalities we take in every day that are vampirous energy suckers of our blood and our life chi, we will live a life of sickness and pain.

Watch your body carefully and listen to your cravings, your food intake, and look at your poop. Be careful with your body. See an acupuncturist like me, or another holistic health practitioner.

One thing I can prescribe right now in terms of food you should be eating, is to take the 10-Day Transformation Cleanse twice over a 40-day period like I am doing now – I have a $50 gift card to get you a discount on the Superfood product. I took the most pure form of superfood on the market right now in a really easy and nutrient dense routine where I could eat real food that was good. This, and their Fiber and Detox natural herb supplements were altogether what worked for me and saved me from the pits of hell. What we eat directly correlates to what we become – whole, nutritious, and organic, and SUPER as in SuperFood. So turn yourself into a Superfood (with extra fiber).

If you’re going to do your own thing, make sure meals are small (only a cup serving of fruits and veggies cooked), lots of fiber, lots of water, and these herbs I mention. The best and easiest and most effective (because you get the accountability to!) is to do this Supergreen cleanse I mention with me (starting on July 23!) which has all the organic natural supplements and food over those 10 days to give you a full body reset.

Wash your hands and your food, especially after going to the bathroom or dealing with pet poop. Let’s just get the basics here.
Lastly, establish higher boundaries for yourself. Don’t settle for less than what you deserve. Don’t lower your standards for anyone. Keep yourself clean. Keep doing your routine that helps you feel strident and relaxed. Do whatever it takes. We are living in a vampire world. We have these bodies only for a certain time before we waste away. Let’s live in the light and concern ourselves with higher matters that help instead of hurt. Things that lift us up instead of bog us down.
Botticelli’s “Primavera”

Five Things I Have Learned From Community Acupuncture

1.  Acupuncture works.

Whether it’s sciatica, allergies, digestion, depression, menstrual troubles, IVF, joint pain, insomnia or just wanting to deal with that stress in your shoulders and neck which everyone seems to have – acupuncture just works. The trick is coming to a number of sessions in that first month or two. For more chronic issues that are complex and long standing (multiple surgeries, multiple addictions, multiple pharmaceuticals) it may take longer, even up to a year of regular acupuncture treatments. The point is to come and get the balance and go home and see what that balance serves when you’re put in your normal situation again. How does this feel now that I’ve had acupuncture? What is my body telling me about this symptom? What can I change about my situation or my environment that works better for me? My symptoms are teaching me something about my life – can I listen?

One woman had sciatica going down her left leg. She noticed it came around whenever she was doing what she called “museum walking”  or walking slowly in the grocery store, or in the museum, lost in thought or being overly thoughtful about something. So I treated her Spleen and Stomach, which governs thought and this kind of rumination. I also treated her Gall Bladder which is about the direction of thought, and making wise judgement (it also happened to lie over where she was experiencing the pain). She noticed a huge improvement and only came back one other time or two because she had had that realization while she was also getting the right treatment.

2. Believe in your ability to heal.

Placebo affect is a real thing in acupuncture and I now have a lot of respect for it. It’s why people seek out healers in the form of acupuncture and other modalities – because these healers believe they can heal and they give them unconditional love while they are doing it. The Western medicine system is meant to be broken so there is incentive for us to come back. It’s not based on healing. It helps, but does not fix. If we were fixed, we would not need the expensive surgeries or expensive drugs foretold of fixing. People come to acupuncture when there is nothing out there in the market that can work. Pills will just mask or complicate it. Surgeries just create more pain. Therapists and psychotherapists only know the part of the story and the trauma we are willing to reveal. Enter acupuncture.

I have a story of one woman who comes in two, sometimes three times a week every week. You wouldn’t presume she was suffering as much as she is. In her intake form, it is written into all of the margins all the things that are wrong – every last thing. When I pull up by her side for another treatment, she typically is in a rush, completely overwhelmed, and complaining about the same things, with no connection or progressive consciousness around them, over and over. She almost never stays for the recommended half an hour with the needles which we as a clinic recommend – like it’s on-purpose. She is one of the most difficult patients to see because she comes in so much yet never speaks about any marked change or improvement after each treatment. She doesn’t want to improve if you ask me. She never talks about what helps, she only talks about what is wrong and you can almost see a sort of obsessive search in her eyes for what is wrong and what else is wrong as she talking. She keeps coming back because she is getting something out of it, namely someone to listen to her talk about all this. I spoke to her about wanting to heal and believing she can heal as being part of the whole deal here and we walked through a couple things she can decide for herself that she will and won’t do so she can avoid some of her symptoms.

If you want to heal, you have to follow the rules. The first rule is wanting to heal. The second rule is being ready to make the change with what you see. What foods help, what routine helps, and more importantly what attitude helps. The attitude will get you results. No one will get anywhere if their mind is only searching for the bad. There is SO MUCH research on placebo, the subconscious mind, and our ability to heal our bodies when we believe we are already healed. Believe you are healed in this very moment and don’t pay attention to the circumstances that brought you here. You’ll get through it. The third rule is staying for the half an hour that is recommended. Taking such precautions, showing up for your ‘Why’, showing up for partnership with the practitioner working for you, as well as relaxing, and breathing into this knowing will be the magic elixir to garner that we are healed and healing. So much can come from this shift in our stance.

3. Don’t take anything personally.

I learned that in a community setting, as well as in life, the less you take things personally the more you save yourself necessary pain and the easier it will be to get back to your work helping others. In place of taking something personally, hold a stance of compassion that you don’t know what people are going through, but you are sending them love from that tenderness in your heart that you have also been hurt too. They are that way for a reason and you will never know why but you have to be compassionate. There is a lot of pain and sickness in the world. Not just children starving in Africa but people who can’t relax or who punish others constantly for their own state which they can’t control. This is a time where people need love. They need lots and lots of love. Most people probably don’t know what unconditional love is let alone feels like. If someone treats you like shit from the get-go, do your best not to react. This is such a good lesson, as difficult as it is. If a moment could be stretched out for five minutes, wow. We could see all the things that goes on in people’s heads and their assumptions of everything which create the cage of the experience that we have. We are what we put out there. Have compassion.

4. It’s O.K. to relax.

Everyone in community acupuncture must relax as a very important component of treatment. After we consult with their issues it’s time to put in the pins and let the acupuncture settle into their body. When you receive acupuncture, it’s like being drugged up on the sensation of life coursing through you. It is feeling your blood and your bones and you spirit aura around you getting a cleansing, especially the longer you stay and the more often you come. The lull of sleep with the brightness of healing – this is how it feels to me. This is a potent time to feel like you are being healed, to make resolutions, intentions, and awaken to your own feelings in your body and the feelings and pains we suppress so they can move out. I was so surprised to find how little people sleep or rest. This is so important. If we got more rest, a majority of our symptoms wouldn’t be there – this is almost a guarantee and I’ve read this in sleep studies. In a community setting you get to rest and it’s O.K. because other people are resting too! And the world is not collapsing and we are creating a new reality that it’s okay to take care of yourself and to rest. There’s also this fear about resting that people are afraid to rest even if their body needs this and is garnering this response from the treatment. Please don’t be afraid of rest or of naps or of going to bed early. This is a healing response and we have to willing to go through the healing so we can be healed.

5. Don’t let anyone tell you to hold back your love. 

When I first started, the owner of the clinic told me that I needed to be “consistent” with people and he kept repeating this over and over to me. I understood the concept but at the same time it was very confusing to me. He meant that I shouldn’t do one thing one day to a patient and another thing another day with the same patient or other patients, whether it was pins placed in one part of the body versus another, or if having more of a conversation on one day than another day. I soon realized this had to do with his own fear in opening his heart than it had to do with a patient’s experience of the clinic or of the treatment they were getting from me (or of me as a practitioner). I learned that I can be loving and open to everyone in various ways, subtle and obtuse, without sacrificing the quality of the treatment and their experience. Patients will know immediately the difference. People can feel it. Some patients we naturally have the exchange of words, some others prefer to talk very little – and what matters every time, before I ever pick up a pin to insert, is my unconditional love that I feel for them before treating them. It comes with the intention of healing them, in the belief that they CAN be healed. Who else is going to hold that in possibility for them? It’s up to me to love and believe in them. People are desperate for a person to treat them with love, kindness, and care. This was a huge learning and I will always follow my own guidance in this regard and not hold anything about myself back when I am in a place of being in service to others. I have a lot of compassion for people who feel they have to hold back being who they are, or that who they are isn’t good enough to serve a person in the moment. I feel like this sums up all of the previous four things I have mentioned – that there is no holding back. If we give love to others without expectation or an agenda, then a majority of the healing has already been accomplished. We are not alone. We are here to grow together and we are all healed together.

Acupuncture With A Side of Fried Chicken

I don’t eat fried chicken but I work at a place for fried chicken. The food will always be “Good.” “Amazing.” I say “You’ll love it” to people. Because they will love it. I tried the fried chicken once and it was amazing, and then I had diarrhea and migraines for days. I had to get to acupuncture pronto to help my gut. That, ginger root, and exercise helped it get totally better. And I will still sell both of those things to people touting their goodness for the right reasons.

Granted bar food is so easy to sell. “You’re here for the delicious bar food, right? Do you like grease? Spice? Drinks and beer cheese fries? Doing something totally indulgent? Sweet. Welcome and let me help you get you set up.”

I want to make selling acupuncture this easy. People walking into my clinic knowing what they wanna get, looking forward to the final product, and money is already on the table.

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Since March I took this job at Crisp Restaurant + Bar in Shaw neighborhood of DC, a fast-changing part of D.C., with a lot of cute neighborhood digs.

The restaurant, on 1st and Rhode Island, best known for their hot chicken, a fried specialty, and classic southern-cooked sides such as mac n cheese (super cheesy), collard greens, french fries, banana pudding, and the famous craft cocktail like an Old Fashioned…

Though this chicken joint is ‘not me’ – it IS me.

As an acupuncturist I have been thinking the thoughts of WHO AM I if I eat gluten, or love cheesy mac n cheese, drink soda when I eat out, or have a few bottomless mimosas too many like these other customers are doing.

Where others drop their money on a six pack or some fried chicken, I will drop any amount of money on the right dairy-free milk, the right sugar-free kimchi, or the right gluten-free granola. Definitely I am a bit of a holistic fanatic.  If it’s natural and botanical, spiritual or transformational, high vibrating, food, supplements, or access to higher knowledge, I will pay top dollar. For example I will spend the extra $4 on a juice with juiced parsley in it because I know parsley helps eliminate mercury and free radical levels from the system.

Of course being well versed in the realms of healing, using holistic methods of healing (acupuncture, nutrition, rest, water, breathing exercises, chakra meditations, natural herbs or supplements, journaling, yoga what have you) is my job and I should invest in these things. It’s good to have high health standards so I can teach my patients. I coach people to solve their health concerns sustainably and holistically, helping to move their chi based on how cultivated I am in the cultivation and movement of my own chi.

I had a lot of fears going into a new service job (never mind that I had worked on a coffee bus on Hawaii). What would people think of me as a healer/health conscious person? Would I look less like an acupuncturist? Would I get ostracized or bullied by people at work for being ‘too holistic’? Would I fall back into some old habits (drinking, smoking, not sleeping enough, not exercising enough, whatever) that would negatively impact or compromise my health in some way? Would I pick up some bad friendships or bad vibes dealing with people or would I get along with everyone? And the bigger question for my career, how would I be in bigger and bigger environments around more and more people and still maintain healing presence and a sense of vitality to be able to heal? I ask these questions for myself and for many other practitioners of healing arts or who feel a calling to take holistic measures in their lives but also have to be out in the world interacting with many different businesses, working otherwise for yourself and paying all the bills.

I have been able to make this experience work for me despite my past experiences in bars, in the nightlife lifestyle, which is bringing up past times I was bullied (really!) for having food intolerances or wanting to go to bed early, dealing with bad vibes, and getting myself into trouble. I had shut myself off and distanced myself a lot from what represented to me these oppositional forces. I’ve adopted that I just need to be in the moment with my experience. (Isn’t that always the answer?)

I can now love and accept the irony here. Doing something I want to do that is the opposite of what people expect is part of a soul expansion I am doing- something my soul needs to explore and learn from and grow from for reasons that are mysterious. (This is in fact the hallmark sign of soul work).


And I’ll close with a story that I feel is related, learning not to take yourself too seriously making life out to be so linear or absolute…that healing is neither linear or absolute:

In the car on the way home from a retreat with my acupuncture class, I told a friend a bit too preemptively, and a bit too boldly (I was a little grumpy at the time) that she, a recovering alcoholic going to meeting Alcoholics Anonymous, would one day find herself  years from now able to have a drink without calling herself or labeling herself an alcoholic, or feeling the pain or guilt at any trajectory of relapse. I was being a bit of a devil’s advocate.

Of course she got really mad at me because AA was her life, her support, and her community at that point in her recovery. Duh, it was upsetting to her when so much of her life and her transition was tied to this 12-Step program (which is really an amazing resource for people struggling with addictions). I felt bad after I said it, it was not my place to say, and even in my grumpy state, it was coming from a good intention. At the time I had just finished reading Eckhart Tolle’s ‘The Power of Now’ and he made this exact point about an alcoholic in recovery.

I know it sounds kinda mean and maybe crazy, especially to people who have struggled with addiction (which, if we lived in our 20s, we all probably have). Definitely we can all agree any addiction is a brain disease (an escape, seeking comfort from the outside, seeking to change your state to avoid old unidentified patterns of pain) that takes a lot of time to heal, undoing karma with people interpersonally and reworking the structure of your life.

I wanted to leave with this above idea anyway, that there will come a day when we don’t need to identify with what we’ve been handed and the wounds we were meant to bear, the labels we have had to carry – we need the story and we need to move beyond the story. Ultimately.

And that would be freeing. Imagine how liberating that would be, if we aren’t these realities, we have already overcome what we ‘thought’ we were without even trying.  We realize we didn’t need those things to be sane anyway, everything is wrote, and we can trust ourselves exactly for who we are for now anyway.

How often do we take for granted how much we have changed that would make an outcome totally different if we truly saw ourselves for who we are Today?

It’s important to continuously let go of the past, identifying with it, letting it define who we are. We can’t let just anything in our life DEFINE us. These things of ‘WHO AM I’ of where I eat, where I work, what I do, who I connect with are not ME – IDENTIFIED. Doing that will limit where our soul needs to experience everything.

I was moved that what I felt was called for was to be a server, and I smile to myself when I think of the term ‘server.’ It’s about being humble and getting your work done and being there for people.

I decided I would trust this idea that kept repeatedly entering my mind (even before my friend who owns the place offered that I come in). I realized I like the service industry a lot. I like the people I interact with. I like the community and the camaraderie and doing business with people. The people I work with at Crisp feel like family, and each of us has our important role which feels very grounding.

I want to sell acupuncture and create community and family. I want to make holistic healthcare as accessible and wonderful as rich greasy food is to the American diet. I am learning about creating the consistency and proper nourishment for everyday people and how to serve up exactly what they want every day. Like a cold beer that could actually be good for you. 🙂

Spiritual Curatives For Emotional Distress


[Editor’s note: I originally channeled this message the morning of my Vision Board Workshop on January 3rd. I didn’t share it with anyone, yet I feel very strongly to share it today. I happened to have found it today even though I didn’t open it on my computer…hmm.

In light of the recent events of protests and marches, the intense debates online and in the media, the nauseating news stories of the anger, hatred, fear, vitriol that is being introduced by the racist, sexist, money-driven white supremacists running the White House in America and all the people who find themselves caught and unable to look away, feeling helpless, I needed to teach about something I know on the subject.

This is the broadcast for all self-reflective, sensitive, caring and loving individuals, activists, artists, healers on this path who feel affected by what’s going on in the world in some way, who are caught up in the drama, the internet trolls out there, the general malaise of all their friends and family and want to become aware of their own energy field to be better able to cleanse, heal, and serve. Read on:]

Our purpose is to channel love.

Our body is a vessel for spirit to act out its destiny.

Each one of us is a vessel for our own heart’s spirit, the spirits of many other people around us in our lives, and the spirit of nature.

There is a call to bring our Spirit to become alive again, to refresh our purpose and return to our calling to continue to reform and improve society.

I experience in my practice and in the healing of myself and others that there are certain things you can do to bring Spirit to Body. These things all elicit a palpable feeling state of flow for everyone, some having more of a palpable affect of the feeling state of spirituality in the body than others. As you look over this list, you can perhaps recall a time that you experienced something out of the ordinary yet possessing a certain type of miraculous feeling – a “life is a miracle” feeling where you had new eyes and senses from which to perceive the world, new life, new spirit.   These feeling state awareness come in the form of the following activities/items:

  • Taking a Shower
  • Writing a poem or making art
  • Exercising/Sweating
  • Yoga T’ai Ch’i or Qi Gong
  • Going to the movies or reading a powerful book
  • Doing a breathing technique
  • Praying, going to a temple or house of prayer
  • Using stones, crystals or gems
  • Taking a salt bath
  • Having a conversation with a friend or lover that’s really meaningful
  • Writing in your journal
  • Using sage, incense or a candle for cleansing
  • Meditating
  • Participating in a ritual with a tribe or shaman where there is chanting, singing and sacred music with or without the use of an entheogen
  • Sitar, gong, or singing bowl sound healing
  • Getting body work


Getting an acupuncture treatment is among the first and most effective naturally healthy and gentle ways to clear your energy field that I have found for my journey personally. The list above can cure the subtle and denser layers in the physical body, that which would normally disturb our ability to see and perceive life through the eyes of love and infinite possibility.

Our spirit continuously renews in the matter in these ways, and having an unending position of gratitude for it increases its potency even more.


In acupuncture I sense people’s energetic availability in the moment and I have a psychic knowing sense of the various things that are bothering them. I can hear their pain, and where there is a need to let go of certain thought form entities of stuck energy that need to be removed and worked out of the density and released.

We all have sticky auras, because we all need other people to help us grow and evolve, and this is part of our purpose to become aware of these things that were once betrayed to us in the matter. 

The negative entities get in to our bodies starting as some experience in our life that never got cleared and kept being added to our thoughts and memories so much so that it began replaying in our reality day to day. As it grew stronger over the months and years it began to become shoulder pain, neck pain, back pain, lower back pain.

It would come into the body or manifest in the body during certain periods of emotional stress and discomfort reminiscent of this initial invasion. Interestingly it wouldn’t show up at other times when things were more calm like they had gotten out of the environment or away from the person which was caustic, or they became distracted and enlivened by something that made them happy (or by doing one of the above things on the list!) either for a small window of time or through an intentional lifestyle change. There was a disconnect to this thought form which made room for new life and new healing and the freedom of their spirit to exist in the world in a new way.

This is what happens from living out in the world and being subject to life as human beings between heaven and earth, light and dark, form and ether. In order to grow and advance and move into uncharted territory in our lives we have to mitigate our energetic body living in the present moment with the inertia of our past.

We have to be willing to do the present moment, mindful energy work that is necessary to take a quantum leap. We must locate spirit in our lives and see spirit in life and feel spirit in our bodies to be able to heal these things. Whether momentarily or for a lifetime  these spiritual beings incorporate in us so we can, as mediums, be able to augment or eliminate them at will to feel more at ease and control in our lives. All of us are masters of our own lives and healers of our own energy, learning quite a lot over our lifetime about ourselves.


I’m seeking to take something esoteric like spirit and spirituality and make it physically understood for people so they can have a sense understanding in their body what this feeling is and why it’s important to pay attention to it.

To talk about addictions briefly

This is a repetitive cycle that is compounded of many different influences, ancestral karma, and hurts over time. The longer something goes unexamined, the more it can grow into our bodies causing pain and causing layers of pain. As we release the layers we spiritually grow and are able to help others release these wounds on an exponential scale which helps the whole world.

Addiction is a disease in the mind that we must cure that has a psychological and bodily response in us, causing us to go on automatic to quell the outside stressor that is coming in. We don’t know what we don’t know until we are placed out of the habit or environment that was keeping us numb to our own wisdom our body constantly communicates to us.

Strong addiction is an endless cycle that keeps repeating as the body starts to get used to the highs and lows from the initial impact(s) considering it a normal bodily state. Scientifically speaking, our body adapts to the radical hormone fluctuations that are propagated through the stressor, along with the substance or emotion that comes as an automatic response.

If it’s not an alcohol or narcotic or some other addiction to things, it’s a love addiction or a drama addiction with social implications where the mind can creates upsets like “I’m not getting enough attention,” “I’m not being shown enough love,” “That person is treating me badly,” to act out old recordings of our past. This invokes a familiar pain which we on a subconscious level attract and need to experience over and over again until we receive the instructions for how to unplug from these drainages in our energy system. This pain is so we can grow and manifest under new paradigms the thoughts and beliefs which are in the alignment of self love and forgiveness, defined by us as the masters of our inner world.


We can easily react from the position of the innocent children as the victim, yet the call is to accept everything that happened to us and is happening to us not as ‘good’ or ‘bad,’ ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ notions but to realize that somewhere there’s a karmic ballpark where everything that everyone is doing to one another makes sense for the grander plane of the love unfolding in the world.

Practice one of these self care rituals for half an hour every day and listen to how your body feels before and after.

Receiving healing work from a self-cultivated practitioner such as an acupuncturist can help greatly to unravel these patterns so the body can begin to direct us in healthy ways where we have gone astray from listening intuitively within.

We are made of 90% water, with the same organic compounds as other living beings, soil, and the stars in the sky. It is helpful to use substances from nature for healing such as the ocean or the moon can help to bring these emotions and disruptions out of our body. Salt baths, crystals, as I mention, are some of the things that vibrate at a naturally higher frequency. Nature is constantly trying to help us. The more we can align with the cycles and the gifts of the seasons for great health and ease in life.

The goal of all my mentioning this to you is to be in the present moment with total forgiveness, without judging the mystery of the unknown past and future as it presents itself to us.

As human beings forgiveness for the moment is essential for how we choose our perceptions of reality. We have a soul-need to play out the dark and the light forces in the physical time and space with denser and slower energy of the bodily tissues as we move about, interact, and transform our perception of the world. We are subject to the wills of spirit as matter bumping around with other matter.

When we have the power of forgiveness in our heart we are endlessly renewed to be present in the moment and we don’t get stuck in the illusion of the other thing/person outside of ourselves. We can act according to our higher self in the moment because we are not mindlessly acting from some past hurt or sadness, resentment, anger, fear, grief, or even joy or sympathy in our life (the five emotions in Chinese 5-element acupuncture). From a higher place, the moment contains all power to manifest the justice of our soul’s perception.

Consciousness will spread. The Truth can never be hidden. The messages Spirit needs to come through our channel, is what is meant to be alive and embodied for the matter destiny wherein all beings evolve simultaneously.


Spirit is always guiding us.  They want to be part of this process with us. The closer we come to the present moment, the more we can allow ourselves to observe the illusion.

When we do this we find new feelings of satisfaction in our day to day life, which is what Abraham Hicks, channeled by Esther Hicks, calls “being in the vortex.” This is the augmentation of positive feelings and a sense of devotion to our higher purpose. This is a feeling state of limitless being which is creating opportunities for effortless magnetism and natural abundance to flow to us. With practice we will be able to sustain these periods of flow and abundance for longer and longer periods.  The grace that is given to us will be given in greater amounts as we transmit these acts of grace to other people.

So the time is to raise our consciousness. The time now is to keep cleaning our bodies and our mental of our attitudes and beliefs. Clean the food that comes in our mouth, purify the water, clean the places we sleep and work, the people we let into our sacred space of intimacy and vulnerability. Go with your intuition. Pick your battles. Retreat when necessary, but never give up on being the sensitive being you are. The world needs this sensitivity. We are hear to uplift others and receive the divine blessings which are abundant now.

With Love,


Heart Surgery


Hopefully the docs are zippering up my dad’s chest from the heart surgery he had this morning by now (just another Friday the 13th tale) …

In the early 90s this procedure used to be risky and had a significant fatality rate. Now it’s generic protocol for many Americans. Western medicine is pretty unbelievable. I still feel nervous for him, because I remember learning about this surgery in grade school. And I got upset he had a beer last night with dinner before going in because why wouldn’t you want to hydrate, hydrate, promote iron levels for quality immune response, faster recovery, regular mood..? I think about the ‘little things’ all the time, probably too much.

Live and let live. Live and let the heart get hooked up to a machine, get hooked back up to the body, get hooked back to the brain, to be pumped without feeling, without emotion.

Before I go in to see him in intensive care, I am studying again today and again for this board exam with deep love in my heart for acupuncture, with deeply refreshed personal will. When I get that piece of paper this spring (by the will of God; God willing) saying I’m nationally certified as a Diplomat of Acupuncture I’m going to go full steam ahead. I’ll wear a stethoscope and a white coat (and a pair of fake glasses to look the fashion)(-athough nothing really about me will be fake)).

I’m going to tell people how to breath and offer exercises to help them regulate their heartbeat and their breath. I’ll say one or two sentences about their heart being the Emperor of the Kingdom. The heart must be a spacious, open spiritual vessel to the Five Emotions. The emissaries of the organs which arrive for counsel next to this seated Emperor, Her Highness the Spiritual vessel of the Soul, the One Soul (One Love).

Mostly I’m not going to say anything. I’m going to listen to their heartbeat so they can listen to their heartbeat too. Mostly I’m going to stick needles all over their body so they can feel them sticks too. Feel that body. The body is a vessel for this life too.

I hope they have zippered up my father’s dear precious body with his clean heart for this next segment of his life before the Return. I am thinking of how his body looks like my body. I am my father’s daughter, carrying his father’s doctorate degree in primary care, which skipped a generation and become Chinese. 🙂

Living In An Acupuncture Body

Acupuncture amazes me. As a patient and as a practitioner, I fell in love with this medicine because it gave me the means to explore my health condition in a way that addressed my concurrent need to explore underlying issues in my physical state within my deeper consciousness. I longed to know myself so I could know what to do next.
Acupuncture allows an all-natural access to the ‘Gates of Life’ (using Governor Vessel 4’s point name here for metaphor). These are portals to higher and higher understanding of our body’s wisdom and the trickle down effect of very subtle pattern imprinting over our lifetime (and from previous lifetimes in our ancestry).

Acupuncture breaks up old vibrations to create new ways of being to serve us in the Now. The healing results in not just new thoughts, new possibilities for us conceptually, but the literal embodiment of health and renewal: new movements in our eyes, new voices from our tongue, new gestures in our hands and a renewal of literally everything that our watery body can move through via the gates of this life-giving chi.


Today I treated a woman opening one of these ‘gates’ to her by calling her in that moment to the feeling sensation of her body – from the pins and where they were placed around her body. In guiding her through that feeling-state-sensation of the chi, she could begin to feel lightness, the movement of life and health that the acupuncture needles were beginning to augment. As I guided her she was able to become present to her state to create a real-time shift in herself.
Because her body was already undergoing a reassignment of the alpha and theta wave-states of her brain, deep in her subconscious in her parasympathetic state, she was able to have a very comfortable out-of-body experience coupled with a very powerful visualization quite meaningful to her. She recounted this to me afterwards with wonder and amazement.
For the fact that this energy cannot be bottled in a pill makes it a most valuable healing commodity in its own right. Everyone who lives in a body has access to this healing force which acupuncture makes real. It’s not a concept. It’s not a placebo – I believe those experiments have validity but are out-dated in today’s world, with so many of us sensitive Indigos, sensitive to energy.
These experiences can be directed through acupuncture. They are happening on ethereal layers in our aura, in the kinetic layers in our tissues and muscles, and down to the densest material in our bones.
For those suffering in pain in their body who have tried everything for their condition yet still find options limited, who feel caught and blinded by the onslaught of life in a body, acupuncture can help. A pattern is still stuck in the inertia, in the cycle of life and death all around us. A new gate needs to be open; the river needs to feed into the ocean.
When you buy a session of acupuncture, you’re buying a priceless human experience from the soul wisdom inside, the one that knows exactly what you are doing, and exactly everything as it is already happening.

The Real Deal Earth Day


I just woke up from an upsetting dream. I walked into a room at a friend’s house where a bunch of people were sitting on couches watching TV. On the screen a dog was getting tortured with chemicals and being injected one by one by a circle of people around it. They were harming it and it lay there without fighting, helpless and afraid.

The whole scene was distressing and heart wrenching. I looked at everyone on the couch and noticed their immense apathy towards it, an towards me for reacting. They had blank stares, and a numbness to it all. Just another TV show, just another day.

Earth Day is on April 22nd in the United States and it’s a time when people plant trees and flowers, clean the trash from the roads, reflect about the amount of plastics and trash they use that hurt the environment, and how to cut down on what’s called the ‘carbon footprint‘.

Yet Earth Day is so much more than another day. Earth Day is about waking the f*k up! This TV show was toxic! This apathy was toxic! This dog was toxic! The dog didn’t do anything to anyone!!!

So many things have gone so wretchedly wrong that need healing. To heal the Earth means to adopt a radically different way of healing ourselves and conceiving of our role in health with the state of the earth. We are born children of the Earth, and the task is to return to ‘our nature.’

This is what my job as an acupuncturist is meant to do: to put people back in touch with their nature and how they truly are and how they truly want to feel. 

The kind of Earth consciousness I felt in my dream moved something in me on a deep level.

Maybe you were like me as a kid where you felt really bad for the kid who was bullied every day, or the insects and animals that were tortured, trees that were cut down, whales and marine life that suffered pollutants. Maybe you felt really sensitive to the environment so much so that you couldn’t stand those who disrespected Life, whether it was in the school yard or in the news.

Earth day is about moving out of apathy. Taking a stand against violence on all levels and bringing a sense of empathy to all living things and beings.

Last week on my commute to and from the office I saw two different people just roll down their car window and chuck some trash out onto the road.

I thought, “Really? We are living in the year 2016 and people are still this stupid about the environment?”

Why yes, we are very, very stupid. Don’t forget this video with Koko the gorilla from the COP21 environmental summit in Paris last December.

And I’ll bet many of you have a story about someone running their car with the A/C on in a parking lot and someone coming up to tell them to turn it off – and what a sh*tstorm that can be. (Apparently if a car is on more than 30 seconds, it becomes a waste and has no detriment to the transmission – something I learned in a Wyoming National Park).

If we are rising in consciousness and awareness as human beings, we must come to confront the social aspects with people from various backgrounds who are very unconscious and very unwise when it comes to our earth. Even people close to us, not just strangers in the road. Our health and our body is the example of earth, and our attitude sets the example of integrity and compassion for all of Life as a sensitive being.

Luckily I have found some friends who feel just as sensitively as I do to their health instead of me always having to defend my lifestyle. We all need that support when it comes to living in a conscious way with kindness and regard for our earth and the continuation of life.

Using Mother-Earth given intuition to make choices and promote changes that feel healthy and good is the most important thing anyone can do to honor the Earth. Negative people are always going to find a problem with whatever you do that you consider positive and empowering, so choose your friends wisely and trust the people who make you feel good just being yourself.

This is why Earth Day is so much more than a day of collecting trash from the side of the road. Earth Day is about harmony with people and nature, something that acupuncture, whole foods, herbs, and the health of our bodies promotes in us, which is growing stronger in the world every day the more people open up to these modalities.

There are so many stories out there of what Earth consciousness, body awareness, and holistic medicine can do for us personally. For those who can alter their world view to see a bigger picture of their symptoms connected to other things, people, and life events, it can be a very deep study and revelation for them, with rippling effects.

The munificence of the Earth is never ending in a way that a bigger picture can be drawn around a small issue that needs healing. The new paradigm  is a holistic philosophy. In health there is harmony, and enough for everyone.

The more we use the natural medicines of the earth, the more we learn to protect and value our bodies and the earth. The more we empower the miraculous healing of mother earth, the more she can heal us on radical levels far better than any man-made drug or miracle diet or latest health fad. The miracle of our healing comes from inside us and our ability to recognize who we are, how we feel, and stand up for nature which needs our help.

The more health we have in our bodies the more we can feel the unhealthy stuff in greater ways – not just food and cosmetic products but people, situations, the same old stuff that gets us in trouble and separates us from our truth. It’s like giving up wheat or processed food in your diet and then eating it a month later – we’ve changed and our chemistry has changed, and we see what is not harmonious.

For others who have been on this path for a while know that as we grow, we have greater need to support our biological system with higher vibrational foods and products from nature, which gentle on our system and our growing sensitivity.

For example, in going through acupuncture school and becoming a healer I gave up wheat, dairy. Then later after graduating, processed foods and sugar. Then I changed my toothpaste and mouthwash (same effectiveness as the fluoride ones) and shower products to natural ones. I also use the Diva Cup for my menstrual cycle. Then cutting out negative people (who directly or indirectly tried to hurt me) along with my negative self-esteem and martyrdom which were depended upon by others creating a toxic cycle of ups and downs. As I learned higher vibrational ways of being, I couldn’t stand to continue on as I had in the past. My health and healing practice has benefitted as a result of these changes.

Minding your health is the manner of creating a biofeedback loop with the messages you need to grow and move into higher phases of your life’s mission. This is your intuition and your ability to deeply understand what is going on inside of you, listening to the repetitive messages you receive and taking action on the first thing, even if it seems unrelated to your problem.


It’s a gift from Mother Earth, from nature, that is calling for you to pay attention. It’s not a curse. It’s a destiny that calls to you because you are strong enough to go for it, to heal yourself and to help and heal others because you come from an authentic, sincere place, and house an angelic nature within yourself that you have felt since you were a child.

As a sensitive person it’s important not to lose that gentleness and regard for nature and human beings. It’s a gift with so much to offer the more it is explored.

The more you resist, deny, and ignore the calls for your health from your intuition the stronger the voice will become until something happens where you are forced to listen to it. Mother nature is powerful indeed, and we have so much still to understand.

I hope you have a beautiful Earth Day, and for all the days we are given from Earth. Let it be a harmonious one.

And calling all Earth Angels – come and see me for acupuncture and get the support you need for your health and for your mission. Holistic medicine is the first step for your healthy Earth (your body) and thus the environment. Make an appointment here.