Money Healing: This Is A Post About Money

This is a post about $$$ – and the Shift to Wealth that is happening right now.

This past June I had the wonderful opportunity to travel to Italy with my family. This trip, plus three and a half months I spent in Hawaii last fall have been the most life changing events in my life – each time I travel is a bookmark, a turning point in my story.

Traveling has always showed me what it is to live an alternative lifestyle. I graduated college and I could think of no better way to find who I am than to completely lose myself in another country, in the French public school system mainly, teaching English to elementary school kids. I loved feeling like a foreigner and speaking another language. My creativity that spring soared. I created notebooks of collages, I got into vinyl records, and attended film festivals month after month at the historic theater in downtown Nantes. It was a renaissance for me. I had so little and was creating so much and learning about what I wanted on a blank canvas. That trip sowed seeds for what I would do in my career with health without a doubt.

With travel we discover there is an unlimited way we humans can choose to live. A new place equals a new lifestyle. We get to reinvent. We expose ourselves purposely to adopt these ways of other cultures. Whether we stay a while or return home, we always bring a piece of that culture with us, adopting a new way of life.

I have always known myself to be a creative person capable of making a creative life. I started acupuncture school when I was twenty-four because I liked that I could be creative in how I healed people and I could run my own schedule. And I loved the Chinese characters and little boxes and little pins in my acupuncturist’s tidy little office. I want to be surrounded by beauty and foreign-ness like this.

I have also always believed health is the answer to wealth.
Having clarity about who you are and what your purpose is means you can make a difference in the world and therefore make money. Big money. Acupuncture opened all the doors for me like that. Old beliefs washed away. I kept picturing myself as the woman in one of my collages, looking out the window of her airplane, looking fly as hell.

I have plans to return to Hawaii for some time. Brazil too for some soul work with the shamans in the Amazonian rainforest. Maybe sooner than that: the Puzhao Buddhist Temple up on Mt. Qingcheng in Western China, where I can study Chinese Medicine, Chinese Classical Literature and Qi Gong with master practitioners.

My ultimate goal is to be able to work remotely wherever I want, and pay off all debt in my sleep. YES!!! However my dream to keep on traveling this year sank to a pang in my chest. When I came back from Italy, a trip that was most expenses paid, I hit the reality that I just couldn’t afford the time off work. I had bill after bill for two whole weeks after that leaving me $15 for groceries (and this is given the fact that I don’t even pay rent or car expenses right now). I was lucky my uncle was in town and handed me $70 after I gave him an acupuncture treatment on the living room couch. Very lucky.

I basically came to the realization that even with my love for acupuncture, something I will practice the rest of my life, that I pretty much have to practice it for the rest of my life. There’s no retirement plan or exit strategy. There’s a certain number of hours per week I must tend to the illness and pain in people and I must do this until I am an ambulatory 90-year-old woman. I only make money when I work. If I don’t work I don’t make money. My patients need more support and so do I.
 
I heard of this thing called residual income a long time ago when I was researching business opportunities. It was something the online coaches were doing. They told me I had to design my own website, write 4 or 5 books about the blogs I would be doing on the website I would have created. Then they told me writing and selling contracts to a long term program would be the fix to everyone’s problems, selling at premium prices, doing workshops and masterminds last. I didn’t see how this was at all possible for me to do. Having the time investment first, then having the cred to sell something at a higher price point in a fledgling launch. Plus getting a community interested, getting these products to sell once they were completed, and doing it all myself…??
 
Moreover, as part of this research I hired a business coach for $8,000 dollars – on credit. So I basically maxed out a credit card for her to help me with this strategy and she didn’t help me at all. I resented those $300+ monthly payments. I needed a return on my investment. I needed money YESTERDAY basically. I was working for it, but getting no results, and I just watched her take my money. I found out later that year she moved to Bali because she too, was burnt out.
 
To accomplish the residual income thing I’ve tried a schedule of barely working to working endlessly around the clock to produce my “website, program, and books” of my “passion project” and nothing got me closer to residual. Everything had an investment of some kind that I couldn’t afford. I did my best with what I had. As I said, I needed money yesterday. It’s hard to be creative when you’re drowning in student loans, credit card debt, and health insurance you literally don’t use. I was depressed. My wanderlust was squashed in these first years of my practice.
 
The silver lining is that a couple months ago I found a way to make residual income (think 64 paychecks a year). It’s doing something that’s actually changing people’s health a full 180. I can work remotely and get paid in my sleep and support massive social change around the health and wellness movement.
 
I’m looking for other thought leaders and entrepreneurs like me who are motivated to do something like this. The investment is very small to buy. I want to work with people who are passionate, excited about what they do, and excited to live their dreams. I want to work with people who are ready to make a massive impact and take things to the next level. I have my bags packed and the jet fuel to launch – are you in? Comment Yes in the comments below or send me an email: [email protected]
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Acupuncture With A Side of Fried Chicken

I don’t eat fried chicken but I work at a place for fried chicken. The food will always be “Good.” “Amazing.” I say “You’ll love it” to people. Because they will love it. I tried the fried chicken once and it was amazing, and then I had diarrhea and migraines for days. I had to get to acupuncture pronto to help my gut. That, ginger root, and exercise helped it get totally better. And I will still sell both of those things to people touting their goodness for the right reasons.

Granted bar food is so easy to sell. “You’re here for the delicious bar food, right? Do you like grease? Spice? Drinks and beer cheese fries? Doing something totally indulgent? Sweet. Welcome and let me help you get you set up.”

I want to make selling acupuncture this easy. People walking into my clinic knowing what they wanna get, looking forward to the final product, and money is already on the table.

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Since March I took this job at Crisp Restaurant + Bar in Shaw neighborhood of DC, a fast-changing part of D.C., with a lot of cute neighborhood digs.

The restaurant, on 1st and Rhode Island, best known for their hot chicken, a fried specialty, and classic southern-cooked sides such as mac n cheese (super cheesy), collard greens, french fries, banana pudding, and the famous craft cocktail like an Old Fashioned…

Though this chicken joint is ‘not me’ – it IS me.

As an acupuncturist I have been thinking the thoughts of WHO AM I if I eat gluten, or love cheesy mac n cheese, drink soda when I eat out, or have a few bottomless mimosas too many like these other customers are doing.

Where others drop their money on a six pack or some fried chicken, I will drop any amount of money on the right dairy-free milk, the right sugar-free kimchi, or the right gluten-free granola. Definitely I am a bit of a holistic fanatic.  If it’s natural and botanical, spiritual or transformational, high vibrating, food, supplements, or access to higher knowledge, I will pay top dollar. For example I will spend the extra $4 on a juice with juiced parsley in it because I know parsley helps eliminate mercury and free radical levels from the system.

Of course being well versed in the realms of healing, using holistic methods of healing (acupuncture, nutrition, rest, water, breathing exercises, chakra meditations, natural herbs or supplements, journaling, yoga what have you) is my job and I should invest in these things. It’s good to have high health standards so I can teach my patients. I coach people to solve their health concerns sustainably and holistically, helping to move their chi based on how cultivated I am in the cultivation and movement of my own chi.

I had a lot of fears going into a new service job (never mind that I had worked on a coffee bus on Hawaii). What would people think of me as a healer/health conscious person? Would I look less like an acupuncturist? Would I get ostracized or bullied by people at work for being ‘too holistic’? Would I fall back into some old habits (drinking, smoking, not sleeping enough, not exercising enough, whatever) that would negatively impact or compromise my health in some way? Would I pick up some bad friendships or bad vibes dealing with people or would I get along with everyone? And the bigger question for my career, how would I be in bigger and bigger environments around more and more people and still maintain healing presence and a sense of vitality to be able to heal? I ask these questions for myself and for many other practitioners of healing arts or who feel a calling to take holistic measures in their lives but also have to be out in the world interacting with many different businesses, working otherwise for yourself and paying all the bills.

I have been able to make this experience work for me despite my past experiences in bars, in the nightlife lifestyle, which is bringing up past times I was bullied (really!) for having food intolerances or wanting to go to bed early, dealing with bad vibes, and getting myself into trouble. I had shut myself off and distanced myself a lot from what represented to me these oppositional forces. I’ve adopted that I just need to be in the moment with my experience. (Isn’t that always the answer?)

I can now love and accept the irony here. Doing something I want to do that is the opposite of what people expect is part of a soul expansion I am doing- something my soul needs to explore and learn from and grow from for reasons that are mysterious. (This is in fact the hallmark sign of soul work).

 

And I’ll close with a story that I feel is related, learning not to take yourself too seriously making life out to be so linear or absolute…that healing is neither linear or absolute:

In the car on the way home from a retreat with my acupuncture class, I told a friend a bit too preemptively, and a bit too boldly (I was a little grumpy at the time) that she, a recovering alcoholic going to meeting Alcoholics Anonymous, would one day find herself  years from now able to have a drink without calling herself or labeling herself an alcoholic, or feeling the pain or guilt at any trajectory of relapse. I was being a bit of a devil’s advocate.

Of course she got really mad at me because AA was her life, her support, and her community at that point in her recovery. Duh, it was upsetting to her when so much of her life and her transition was tied to this 12-Step program (which is really an amazing resource for people struggling with addictions). I felt bad after I said it, it was not my place to say, and even in my grumpy state, it was coming from a good intention. At the time I had just finished reading Eckhart Tolle’s ‘The Power of Now’ and he made this exact point about an alcoholic in recovery.

I know it sounds kinda mean and maybe crazy, especially to people who have struggled with addiction (which, if we lived in our 20s, we all probably have). Definitely we can all agree any addiction is a brain disease (an escape, seeking comfort from the outside, seeking to change your state to avoid old unidentified patterns of pain) that takes a lot of time to heal, undoing karma with people interpersonally and reworking the structure of your life.

I wanted to leave with this above idea anyway, that there will come a day when we don’t need to identify with what we’ve been handed and the wounds we were meant to bear, the labels we have had to carry – we need the story and we need to move beyond the story. Ultimately.

And that would be freeing. Imagine how liberating that would be, if we aren’t these realities, we have already overcome what we ‘thought’ we were without even trying.  We realize we didn’t need those things to be sane anyway, everything is wrote, and we can trust ourselves exactly for who we are for now anyway.

How often do we take for granted how much we have changed that would make an outcome totally different if we truly saw ourselves for who we are Today?

It’s important to continuously let go of the past, identifying with it, letting it define who we are. We can’t let just anything in our life DEFINE us. These things of ‘WHO AM I’ of where I eat, where I work, what I do, who I connect with are not ME – IDENTIFIED. Doing that will limit where our soul needs to experience everything.

I was moved that what I felt was called for was to be a server, and I smile to myself when I think of the term ‘server.’ It’s about being humble and getting your work done and being there for people.

I decided I would trust this idea that kept repeatedly entering my mind (even before my friend who owns the place offered that I come in). I realized I like the service industry a lot. I like the people I interact with. I like the community and the camaraderie and doing business with people. The people I work with at Crisp feel like family, and each of us has our important role which feels very grounding.

I want to sell acupuncture and create community and family. I want to make holistic healthcare as accessible and wonderful as rich greasy food is to the American diet. I am learning about creating the consistency and proper nourishment for everyday people and how to serve up exactly what they want every day. Like a cold beer that could actually be good for you. 🙂

Why I’m Moving To Hawai’i

Today marks my last week on the mainland of the U.S. of A. September 6th I’m going on a one-way trip to Hawaii for an undetermined amount of time.

The reasons why I am going are very simple in my mind and in my heart. I’m ready for a new experience, I’m ready to not live in the D.C. area, and I’m ready to take my career to another level in an ocean close to Asia.

Other reasons are I’m ready to live by the ocean, I’m ready to feel confident in my body, and I’m ready to meet a new soul tribe who take their healing work very seriously.

A tertiary reason? I’m ready to get the f out of my parents house! Hah. California is out of the question right now and I’m totally bored with the East Coast.

As things have turned out in D.C., I’ve become estranged from most all of the people I considered close because I just grew out of the ways we were interacting. I’m not your typical Washingtonian. I don’t drink anymore. My ‘healing stuff’ isn’t received as interesting or relevant to most people and conversations often fall silent if they come up at all, something I find very personally frustrating.

I am stifled by the inertia of my past and broke from my acupuncture grad degree without the network or infrastructure of support like many high-level graduates, just a small mortgage to pay off and a lot of needed reform. Everything needs to change, on a micro level in my life so that I may serve, and on a macro scale for all of humanity in making acupuncture the commodity it deserves to be.

Because of all these things I can see, I can’t be the “Old Lindsay” anymore. I can’t even be Lindsay anymore. In fact, it feels more apt for me to change my name completely so people can get used to calling me, and relating to me, in a new way.  It just doesn’t feel like I’m the same person… really at all.

It’s been interesting ending this period of my life in DC noticing the illusions I kept, the people who have chosen to stay, the people who have chosen to leave, and the people I’ve asked to leave…

A funny thing I’ve encountered in this are people who outright offend or passive aggressively avoid me to better distance themselves. I hate drama, and try to avoid it when I can, but sometimes it’s inevitable, and that’s the way a lot of people cope with grief, resentment, or repressed anger. People are giving me shit just to give me shit. Just because I’m leaving…I get it. No hard feelings…It’s human nature (and probably all of us have abandonment issues of one kind or another).

Just let me go in peace. To use a metaphor by Elizabeth Gilbert, I’m the crab, crawling out of the bucket.

In fact, Now is the time of year to be letting go of a lot. Relationships that suck, people that suck, activities that suck, clutter and crap in our space, on our desks, in our computer, in our minds, all the stuff that just doesn’t matter anymore.

(I definitely recommend Marie Kando’s ‘The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up” because it helps to really see the trees from the forest in terms of what we actually need in our life. I started it in the spring and now am reading the last chapters for the penultimate purge.)

Can you feel it in the air? This end of summer? The change in light, in temperature, in mood? The best way to cope to what can be quite a difficult time for people is to LET GO and lighten the load of this year’s cycle, now in its harvest season.

Just like the peaches and melons and squashes getting large and hanging low on their vine, we too are heavy, full, and almost rotting at the fullness of the year and all that has come to fruition in our lives.

We must slow down in order to be able to digest, in order to savor, and be thoughtful about our hard work and what it has served.  And toss it out – the rotted parts at least so we can make a feast of the rest.

So as I savor what this summer has been, as weird and ‘off’ as it has felt in some regards, a stranger in the most familiar land of my home, I feel more ready than ever to leave for a new place. A place near Asia, near the ocean, where I can practice acupuncture with peace in nature. I’m switching it up.

Make Your Move:

If you’re jealous or feeling some other version of this emotion around my decision, don’t be!

Anything is possible.

Don’t leave yourself out of the good stuff in life.

Discern what is valuable, make a plan, and go on a trip.

Make a list of one-month goals, three-month goals, six-month goals, on up to five-year goals and use it as soul-fuel for your ideal lifestyle. This is a totally internal and self-exploratory process and it ignites itself when you are ready for it.

If you’re in a period in your life where you feel it’s time to let go of people, or change your career, or change your lifestyle or where you live, TRUST THOSE FEELINGS and do it for the thrill of the change and for the beauty and value of what you would learn! They are important markers you must not ignore.

Follow the way of the Tao. Don’t fight yourself, don’t resist yourself.

Get the nuts and bolts and structure in place (logistics, money, time) and then let the Universe take up the rest, lead you where you’re supposed to be.

I’m 30, I have no children and no husband. I’ve been living at home with my parents for a year with no regrets. I’ve been in therapy, I’ve excavated my dark night of the soul for every minute I was to endure it, going through the broke, broken, torn, isolated, and hungry parts of myself.

I’ve been wandering and waiting for “my time” for quite some time. I’ve been through a lot, searching for something real, and lasting, and worth living for.

The dawn is blue.  I’m waiting for my bus with my two suitcases and I’m headed for the ocean.

You can do exactly what I’m doing. Don’t be afraid of your inner voice. You will never be led astray. As my friend Jessica Sandhu said, “I’ve never regretted any investment I’ve made for myself.”

This wasn’t random or an accident. I’ve dreamed about Hawai’i since I was in fourth grade. This was tapping into Life à la carte and coming up with the menu myself.

Dream on, let yourself be, let yourself be guided, and of course, like always, I’ll see you on the other side. 🙂

#NewYearNewYou

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I’ve been thinking a lot about this hashtag since my workshop a few weeks ago with Jessica Sandhu at Georgetown Yoga.

I don’t want it to ever die! In fact it’s been a saying of mine in conversations (and no one has cut me off yet).

New Years’ Day is one of my favorite days out of the year because when you wake up, it’s a whole new date and a whole new marker period. There’s like a palpable feeling of freshness and aliveness, even in the cold weather where I live. It’s a day to start new, and when so many people are doing some version of starting over, it’s hard not to be inspired I find!

Being an entrepreneur, or even if you’re not an self-professed entrepreneur but you just want to heal and grow and keep inspired and alive inside — it’s always about finding and coming into a routine where new beginnings are the norm. A series of startups and start-overs.

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We get unlimited passes to start over, and this truth comes especially handy when it comes to living up to our highest potential.

Imagine if everyone one of us did our own work to forgive the past and wake up looking at the world with fresh eyes. We would come up with so many cool ideas, loving insights for ourselves and for others. We would treat ourselves to only the best things in life. We would take care of our body and our health in new ways. We would cross hurdles that only existed in our minds. We would radically let go, radically move into our power and purpose and radically conquer the day!!!

I want to use the #NewYearNewYou hashtag for the rest of this year because I want everyone to connect with the magic of New Years Day – EVERY day! It’s this very feeling of possibility that can be recreated over and over.

In the treatment room I coach my clients to have intention words every morning when they wake up. Some word which feels really good every time you think of or are reminded of it, and creating the world as _________ (this word).

{Love. Peace. Grace. Serenity. Strength. Abundance.}

No matter what in my presence, this situation, person, thing, will show up as _________.

Then we take back our power. The word, the feeling, the positive momentum comes from us.

Connecting to our higher self through the power of words is a very essential part of the healing process. It takes courage and persistence but is worth loads for cleaning our mental, cleaning our thoughts, our mind, and cleaning this experience we have with our outer environment because it is all connected.

The word is the world. Make it a brand new world for yourself EVERY DAY with #NewYearNewYou – the 2016 version, launched on this very website!!!

So if you want to join with me on this reinvention to take back your power and kick ass out in the world, sign up for my newsletter and bookmark this page for future posts!

XO

Lm

The Blizzard’s Inner Purpose

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Took some pictures of the blizzard and then a few of me in this 1940s fox-hair head wrap which my grandmother gave to me before her passing of recent.

I went into the woods at the height of the blizzard and was struck at how different everything looked sticking apart from the blanket of white.

All weekend I have been thinking about ‘The Revenant’ the recent film with Leonardo DiCaprio and how it was based off of a true story of Hugh Glass, a trapper in Montana and South Dakota in 1823. Such a world away from now.

I was wandering a mile or two from my heated house with my snow boots – as if that was a big deal. Comparing the two scenes of the pre-revolutionary backwoods and an urban 21st century park preserve, I was still struck and heartened by the big beech tree with human carvings etched into it.

It felt like a totem pole, a crossing point, a place to leave little crumbs or gifts, or if you were dying and broke your leg, a spirit of some sort would soon find you there.

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Seems that part of a purpose of a Beech tree is to be carved into by us. We need something eternal and graceful in a tree to be expressing our love and “What A Blast.”

It was an enjoyable time feeling somewhat apart from everyone and everything. I longed for the feeling of vast unpopulated space depicted in the film, and this tree in my path sparked my imagination.

I was thinking of not going out, but then I did and I was really glad for it.

Being buried in the snow at my home with my parents has given me time to really change my conception of time and progress when it comes to my purpose.

In addition to my walk I did a lot of other office things, studying, de-cluttering two closets, two bookshelves, folding my clothes KonMari style (the book ‘The Life-changing Magic of Tidying-Up’ – is like something I have been waiting for all my adult adolescence), and also making space to visualize what financial abundance feels like in the body…

It can be overwhelming juggling lots of different hobbies, systems, and purpose-related activities on top of just getting what needs to get done DONE for life to continue to move forward.

I realized if I spend just 15-minutes to half-an-hour on any pet-project or passion, clutter-clearing or mini-work-out, meditation or whatever it is I want to make time for – I can generate the feelings necessary to boost my confidence, empower my mindset, while learning how to adopt a valuable new skill and learning into my day.

It’s not about the time that it takes to do something, but the consistency in which it is accomplished.

Sometimes fifteen minutes is all we really need to get all the benefits and establish a routine with the results and the confidence we need to keep going.

Lisa Nichols, a revered public speaker, talks about how she worked out fifteen minutes every day while she was on her book tour and traveling over the period of a year and she lost 75 pounds. She couldn’t commit to a whole hour because it would be another hour traveling/showering. All she could afford to commit to in her schedule was fifteen minutes and it got her to her goal in the same amount of time.

Furthermore, my friend Jessica with whom I am co-hosting my upcoming workshop talked about ‘workshopping our life’ – how everything is movement, flux, and work-in-action. And I feel this is especially important to comprehend when we are creating systems, lifestyles, and practices that work and keep us in high spirits and create love, personal growth, and opportunity for us. This is the medicine of a wisdom practice like meditation, yoga, drawing or crafts, exercise and these things put us into an alternate awareness and limbo state of consciousness that we can steer our own life.

This is the energy of movement, creation, opportunity, possibility, growth, and yes, money too.

This is actually what I’ve come to understand about money these days and creating money. You have to be present and act on the moment to create more opportunities. From an entrepreneurial standpoint, it’s the thing that is scary to do that seems ominous and slightly impossible, sort of there but looks really hard, that is where we focus these kinds of 15-minute, 20-minute, whatever you can afford-minute practice. This thing is what actually traps and takes flight in us the feeling of ‘anything is possible’ – the mojo sauce. Gabrielle Bernstein calls it the ‘ing’ or ‘inner guide.’

For example, if I write 15-20 minutes a day, whether to myself or for a book, a newsletter, or blog, I would put me in a state of grace and flow which would help me feel a sense of purpose.

It doesn’t matter who or what the writing is going to, whether the money is there or not. If it keeps helping me feel in flow with my higher calling, then I have done a service to everyone in those fifteen minutes.

Writing is a very basic example – this can be anything you feel like you want to do to feel more in the flow, and attribute more meaning and enrichment to you life.

So whether its something you’ve always liked to do or whether you’ve never done it before and know you want to do more and want to learn more, the first task is setting up a chunk of time where you get to feel really good doing this thing you thought you would never have time for but you actually do.

Our purpose should feed us! This is a sign –  that thing is is always pulling me to it and I am always feeling pulled to it. It’s something that always gives back to us in energy two-fold what we put into it. And it’s something very ordinary, you probably don’t give yourself enough credit!

That’s really all our purpose ever asks of us, is that we do it, do it often, and feel our connectivity to everything and everyone while we are doing it or once it is over. It’s moving into a different time-space reality and into one of divine service, love, space, truth, and synchronicity. In this quantum field, chronological time doesn’t exist – it’s just the Heart and all the blessings which arrive in their miraculous ways.