Things Fall Apart

It’s fall time. Today was the first day I said “shit” under my breath when I saw the sun go down as early as it did. It is October 2nd. This is Ghandi’s birthday and the change of the sun, apparently.

It’s been happening all along but today I really noticed the feeling in the air. Fall is enchanting. I loved the way one astrologer Kaypacha described it: like a snake shedding its skin, there is a part of it dying, the sight is still striking with color like the leaves of fall time, shimmer and fade in complete brightness to the very end.

The drop of the sun. Dropping into fall. Letting go. This is about dropping into only what we need, in its bare essence,  what can withstand the truth and the illusion. Everything else must fall away so we can observe truth and make the judgement.

Gut health, allergies, digestion, IBS, IBD symptoms, skin and hair issues are all very common side effects transitioning into fall. Come see me for help in these areas with acupuncture or I have healing superfood supplements that are exclusively medical grade organic. I would love to work with you through one of these modalities to heal these treatable symptoms.

It’s time to heal, restore ourselves, and not push so hard. Still taking good care with our diet, sleep patterns, and getting into a movement routine are healthy rules of thumb for any time of the year, but the surge of ideas, creativity, the anger and the frenzy of growing something in a new way is much more of a Liver/Spring Wind activity. We can still adopt those attributes into our career or passion project, but more in a fall-way.

Now is more of the time of harvesting this year 2017, taking time to rest and savor these things more, letting any illusion we have built around ourselves in the past year or years fall away, opening in sacred transition to the real deal things that we acknowledge are happening in our lives, things we are undergoing and letting the natural progression of things take its course without worry or delay.  It’s a time of taking care of ourselves and our “house” – the house of the body, and of the home. Things are going inward. The growth is there for sure, but in an inward way. Different chi in the body. In and down. Many Qi Gong moves can rectify this movement.

There are also some astrological things like Uranus opposing Jupiter that are dominating the energy right now. This is about deeply opening our third eye to what we can create, and living into a completely new possibility that is given by the father’s father of time, Uranus. Saturn is Chronos, ruler of the Earth Plane and of time, structure, balance, and rhythm. Uranus, his father, lives in the higher dimensions of the planets and the Astral which do not need to negotiate with the structural aspects of the Earth plane.  One is predictable and formative, functional and physical, the other opposing/balancing is being able to see through our present situation, through clairvoyance and spiritual enlightenment in the realm of Spirit where there are no elements to deter our spiritual growth. We are also still integrating some Venus energies from the Solar Eclipse as well to help our finances and love life, having money, love, and partnership.  Thursday is the full moon in Aries and Jupiter moves into Scorpio on the 10th/11th which sounds like a big deal to me and is something I am going to research more on.

Enjoy the feels and savor the light!

Come and see me at The Spectrum Center of Natural Medicine in Silver Spring, MD on 16th Street, around from the metro. Get into fall mode with a seasonal acupuncture session, or a session of 5 or 10 sessions at discounted rates to work on a problem or issue you may be facing. I look forward to speaking with you!

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5 Spring Wellness Tips

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Spring can be spiky. Here are some tips.

Spring is here! Sort of! Wait winter. No spring! Flowers! Snow. Warm breeze! Freezing wintery mix.

Transitioning into Spring can be a lot for people. There’s always changes in the weather and the activity, not knowing where the energy is best directed. Things are slow to start, and there’s impatience and a sense of a surge, a rush, a need to get somewhere, grow somewhere, like the little buds on the trees.

There can also be mood swings, anger, and frustration or just plain depression for people with cranky liver chi navigating through all this.

Despite putting lemons in my water each morning, stretching and some seated meditation, crossing some needed things off my to-do list, I find the spring to be one of the more sneaky seasons that can get the best of me if I am not careful and mindful of the spring energy.

My health has historically had cranky issues in the spring, or the ‘Wood Phase’ of five

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How tunnel vision feels.. somewhat of a magical kaleidoscope!

element acupuncture. I have floaters in my eyes after looking at bright lights, dizziness if I stand up too fast, and occasional migraines.

I know these symptoms occur after a couple days of not sleeping well, not having enough water, not eating proper foods, or going too hard on a night out. As a woman, bleeding on the heavier side every month, menstrual issues also contribute to these signs and symptoms of blood deficiency, or Liver yin deficiency.

So what are some methods for dealing with the Liver, the official in charge of the smooth flow of chi, the storage of blood, the sinews and tendons, clear sight in the eyes, and the overall energy that is rising up in nature and in our bodies?

And not forgetting the Gall Bladder, the yang to the Liver’s yin, in charge of wise decision, proper perspective, and just action? The back and forth decision making, lack of decision making, lack of action, are things found under the realm of Gall Bladder’s ability to carry out the orders of the Liver. The Gall Bladder is the envoy of the General.  Who has the plans and the gall (hardy-har) to carry out the fresh plans springing forth for this new cycle?

Here are some things I always recommend to my patients:

DRINK WATER:

I recommend people drink at least two water bottles full of water a day, ideally more. Water moistens the eyes, sinews, and blood for smoother flow of chi.  It improves mood, energy, and stamina.

On a whole, people don’t drink enough water. Sugary drinks actually overwork the Liver, messing up our metabolism and making us more dehydrated. Simple, yummy water with cucumbers or charcoal powder (so good!), lemon, spirulina for alkalinity, are the best sizzurp to slurp while you kill it in your workaday or weekend mode.

 

STRETCH:

With the weather constantly changing from cold to warm again, contracting and expanding, it’s important to find balance through stretching major muscle groups and tendons around the major articulations of the joints, especially at the groin as the Liver sinew meridian binds there.

Do some lunges with the arms up such as the warrior series in yoga, especially Peaceful Warrior  which is sort of a backbend, helping to open up the diaphragm and regulate breathing (for example, if patients come in taking big heaving sighs every so often I know they have some congestion in their Liver constricting in the diaphragm. It’s a sign they have a lot of stress!).

Stretching helps get things moving again. This is not unlike the trees getting their sap from the ground to start growing again. As you see them bend more in the wind you know they are returning to life – just like you after a good stretching session!

If you have a specific area that is in pain, spend ten extra minutes on the floor with a towel, on a foam roller, or on a yoga mat getting into a position that helps stretch this area and make it feel good and alive. Stay away from ice as it’s too contracting and more often yields more pain. Drink water.

Overall take time to stretch before and after your gym session, take a yoga class, get outside and get moving again to start aligning your body with the energy.

 

MODERATE YOUR VICES:

Because of all the rising chi, and its affects on our mood, our body, and our plans for spring, it’s a great idea to moderate the things that get you off track in your plans.

Excess sugar, overly rich oily/greasy foods, excess alcohol, weed, prescription pain killers and the like need to be reduced or in some cases eliminated. Listen to what your body needs.

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Naked meditating never hurt anyone!

It’s not a coincidence that many religions incorporate a fasting or abstinence period during this time of year. You may be feeling more sensitively to these things now as the Liver, in this season, is in charge of metabolizing and moving these things all around the body. Nutritionally, this is especially true for oils and sugars. Have berries, lemons, cilantro, parsley, seeds and nuts, salmon, and things that detox the blood and get you your omega 3s and 6s. If you lose a lot of blood each month, or have some of the descriptions I described of myself above, take an iron supplement with your meal.

The result is that you will be feeling more alert, awake, clear headed and responsive to the ups and downs of spring with the weather, the frustrations of things not going as planned, and its resulting mood swings. I find the mood swings in spring to be brutal and having no rhyme or reason, they just come in like a gust of wind and leave just as quickly, however if the blood is vital, our mood and energy cycles are less erratic and the season can be experienced with more ease.

 

GO TO BED BY 11PM:

I know this sounds crazy to many. I am a night owl more than a spring chicken myself, and this is not an easy one for me. But it’s a good one to put on this list. The night time is the time the Liver and Gall Bladder store and clean the blood, going to bed by this time can help them do their job more effectively. Do your best to finish eating dinner by 8pm so the digestion has time to deliver the nutrients to the blood, then be horizontal in bed by 11 so these organs can move the blood into the Liver to be stored and cleaned while we sleep. The result for my body has been waking up refreshed and clear, feeling less groggy and heavy. In the Chinese medicine clock, the Gall Bladder has its hours between 11 and 1AM and the Liver from 1-3AM.

 

DREAM BIG:

This is the time of year to take some of your big dreams to seed. This is the year of the Rooster as well, which is about planning properly and giving everything its due process. It may not all be able to happen in one year, but the first part will!

Look at your calendar. What do you want to have finished one month from now, accomplished three months, six months, a year from now?

What are your plans? What decisions need to be made right now so you can plant your spring crops for harvest season in the fall? What needs to go? What can be added?

The Spirit of the Liver official is the hun which governs our imagination and dreams. It leaves us during sleep and goes to a different place where we have dreams and returns in the morning so we remember what we have dreamt. It comprises all of life- whatever can be seen or imagined is by extension real and can be manifested. All of life’s greatest inventions and technologies, all of the things we take for granted in this life like asphalt and potato peelers were once a dream of some individual who made a big impact. Let yourself dream big for your life. Don’t share this with anyone, just store it in your heart and use it as fuel to set things in motion. We all need a dream and a purpose pulling us forward. And it never ends. After it’s one thing, it’s the next thing. What we are in charge of is this, right now. The right decision, the right action, and the right direction (Gall Bladder) to take us freely and directly to our bliss.

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That uplifted, invigorated feeling is a hallmark of spring feva’ – that can-do, anything-is-possible, conquer-the-world Springtime High. It’s like the feeling of being wonderfully, happily inebriated at the bar with your friends except even better than that because everything on your to-do list is done, the hangover just-let-me-die-feeling never arrives, and you are ready for what awesome thing will be conquered next in your Dream-life.

I hope you enjoyed reading this! Happy Spring, with the equinox around the corner! Sign up for my newsletter below:

#LifeInHonolulu – A Déjà Vu That Is Forever

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Today marks Day 2 of #LifeInHonolulu – in starting my life, starting my life over, whatever you wanna call it, it’s starting to feel like all the same thing.

My astrologer back in April said that Saturn had moved into the first house of my chart (marked by my trip to coastal California mid-October last year) – auguring a pretty literal birth of my body, mind, and spirit. It’s a rare astrological reset that showed up in my chart.

He said everything needed to be reinvented. New hair, new body, new business card, new location, new brand, new everything.

So here I am, taking the advice and moving into my astrological coordinates. That is to say, in the cartographic location of my Moon’s north node. (Everyone has a North and South node in their astrological chart – the South node contains the themes of our past life experiences; the North node indicates themes we need to realize or promote in this lifetime.)

Having moved to Honolulu three days ago, I am still working with quite a bit of fear and anxiety which I have been mitigating through action: doing online research, reaching out to contacts, making time for lots of prayer, visualization, taking proper rest and food.

(Digressing just a little, the food here is amazing. Those half-an-hour trips I was taking to to go to H-Mart, the nearest Asian market in DC, are now a thing of the past. All the Asian goods I love are in every aisle in all the grocery stores here pretty much. A Chinese nutritional heaven!!)

Things I have to do are: buy a car, find a job, find a place to live, and I have to do it mostly on my own. I’ve done this once before in another country…I just need to keep reminding myself that I am wiser, stronger, and more dynamic than all the fears my mind is constantly recapitulating. What helps is to remind myself of all the gifts I have to give and all the ways I can serve people instead of feeling bogged down by the minutiae.

This morning… I opened my eyes at 6:30am. I woke up from a dream where I found soggy wads of money on the ground…

As I lay there in the dawn, various waves of feeling came over me, on a Soul level. This island of Oahu resonates with me on a level I can only barely explain here.

Driving away from the airport in the rental car shuttle as I was first taking in the views, I felt like I had been here before. It felt like I was coming into an alternate hometown of Washington, DC, the same home in a land somewhere else (to my mother’s dismay I’m sure). My first cousin Jennifer who lives here with her husband explained to me that this feeling was “the island welcoming me.”

Chinese medicine states that from the hours of 3am-7am of the Lung and Large Intestine officials in the element of Metal augment a thinner veil between the physical and the spiritual. Therefore spiritual guidance, strong intuitions, inner wisdom, dreams or grief we need to process, or stark spiritual encounters become more apparent at this time.

I wrote in my journal this morning:

I’ve been dreaming a lot. All the details of finding a place and living here feel overwhelming right now.

Yet it feels also surreal, like all these dreams I forgot I dreamed are resurfacing

Like a déjà vu that lasts for hours.

Dreams already dreamed, lives already lived.

I’ve already been here and dreamed in a life here. It feels like I’m walking into a layers of my existence.

It’s like watching a kid’s cartoon from your childhood and feeling everything you felt as a child when you first watched it flood back to you again.

Except it’s ongoing, and all these other things, being recalled.

Seeing your soul’s growth in slow motion and real time.

I’m experiencing a part of myself that is happening now and in the future and in the past,

and on and on.”

 

I’ll no doubt keep you in this loop as to what comes of this mysterious island in the Pacific Ocean – at this lunar coordinate of my life – so in the stars, so in the sea, finding my cove on the rock.

Check back again soon!! <3

Why I’m Moving To Hawai’i

Today marks my last week on the mainland of the U.S. of A. September 6th I’m going on a one-way trip to Hawaii for an undetermined amount of time.

The reasons why I am going are very simple in my mind and in my heart. I’m ready for a new experience, I’m ready to not live in the D.C. area, and I’m ready to take my career to another level in an ocean close to Asia.

Other reasons are I’m ready to live by the ocean, I’m ready to feel confident in my body, and I’m ready to meet a new soul tribe who take their healing work very seriously.

A tertiary reason? I’m ready to get the f out of my parents house! Hah. California is out of the question right now and I’m totally bored with the East Coast.

As things have turned out in D.C., I’ve become estranged from most all of the people I considered close because I just grew out of the ways we were interacting. I’m not your typical Washingtonian. I don’t drink anymore. My ‘healing stuff’ isn’t received as interesting or relevant to most people and conversations often fall silent if they come up at all, something I find very personally frustrating.

I am stifled by the inertia of my past and broke from my acupuncture grad degree without the network or infrastructure of support like many high-level graduates, just a small mortgage to pay off and a lot of needed reform. Everything needs to change, on a micro level in my life so that I may serve, and on a macro scale for all of humanity in making acupuncture the commodity it deserves to be.

Because of all these things I can see, I can’t be the “Old Lindsay” anymore. I can’t even be Lindsay anymore. In fact, it feels more apt for me to change my name completely so people can get used to calling me, and relating to me, in a new way.  It just doesn’t feel like I’m the same person… really at all.

It’s been interesting ending this period of my life in DC noticing the illusions I kept, the people who have chosen to stay, the people who have chosen to leave, and the people I’ve asked to leave…

A funny thing I’ve encountered in this are people who outright offend or passive aggressively avoid me to better distance themselves. I hate drama, and try to avoid it when I can, but sometimes it’s inevitable, and that’s the way a lot of people cope with grief, resentment, or repressed anger. People are giving me shit just to give me shit. Just because I’m leaving…I get it. No hard feelings…It’s human nature (and probably all of us have abandonment issues of one kind or another).

Just let me go in peace. To use a metaphor by Elizabeth Gilbert, I’m the crab, crawling out of the bucket.

In fact, Now is the time of year to be letting go of a lot. Relationships that suck, people that suck, activities that suck, clutter and crap in our space, on our desks, in our computer, in our minds, all the stuff that just doesn’t matter anymore.

(I definitely recommend Marie Kando’s ‘The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up” because it helps to really see the trees from the forest in terms of what we actually need in our life. I started it in the spring and now am reading the last chapters for the penultimate purge.)

Can you feel it in the air? This end of summer? The change in light, in temperature, in mood? The best way to cope to what can be quite a difficult time for people is to LET GO and lighten the load of this year’s cycle, now in its harvest season.

Just like the peaches and melons and squashes getting large and hanging low on their vine, we too are heavy, full, and almost rotting at the fullness of the year and all that has come to fruition in our lives.

We must slow down in order to be able to digest, in order to savor, and be thoughtful about our hard work and what it has served.  And toss it out – the rotted parts at least so we can make a feast of the rest.

So as I savor what this summer has been, as weird and ‘off’ as it has felt in some regards, a stranger in the most familiar land of my home, I feel more ready than ever to leave for a new place. A place near Asia, near the ocean, where I can practice acupuncture with peace in nature. I’m switching it up.

Make Your Move:

If you’re jealous or feeling some other version of this emotion around my decision, don’t be!

Anything is possible.

Don’t leave yourself out of the good stuff in life.

Discern what is valuable, make a plan, and go on a trip.

Make a list of one-month goals, three-month goals, six-month goals, on up to five-year goals and use it as soul-fuel for your ideal lifestyle. This is a totally internal and self-exploratory process and it ignites itself when you are ready for it.

If you’re in a period in your life where you feel it’s time to let go of people, or change your career, or change your lifestyle or where you live, TRUST THOSE FEELINGS and do it for the thrill of the change and for the beauty and value of what you would learn! They are important markers you must not ignore.

Follow the way of the Tao. Don’t fight yourself, don’t resist yourself.

Get the nuts and bolts and structure in place (logistics, money, time) and then let the Universe take up the rest, lead you where you’re supposed to be.

I’m 30, I have no children and no husband. I’ve been living at home with my parents for a year with no regrets. I’ve been in therapy, I’ve excavated my dark night of the soul for every minute I was to endure it, going through the broke, broken, torn, isolated, and hungry parts of myself.

I’ve been wandering and waiting for “my time” for quite some time. I’ve been through a lot, searching for something real, and lasting, and worth living for.

The dawn is blue.  I’m waiting for my bus with my two suitcases and I’m headed for the ocean.

You can do exactly what I’m doing. Don’t be afraid of your inner voice. You will never be led astray. As my friend Jessica Sandhu said, “I’ve never regretted any investment I’ve made for myself.”

This wasn’t random or an accident. I’ve dreamed about Hawai’i since I was in fourth grade. This was tapping into Life à la carte and coming up with the menu myself.

Dream on, let yourself be, let yourself be guided, and of course, like always, I’ll see you on the other side. 🙂

The Human ‘Race’

IMG_4986There is no race to the finish line, or race to be the best to have the best like others are keeping tabs.

There is no race – although if you want the truth: we are given only so many days and so many breaths.

The words that people will say at our funeral can happen the day we die – or before.

Sometimes ‘the race’ is a cycle that needs to cycle through our life-experience so we can know something important to apply to our life’s mission.

A cycle includes the period of gestation (unconsciousness – attracting the unknown), birth (becoming known), and death (complete knowing).

Sometimes the race is being able to fully feel the moment, however complex, dark & beautiful. Pausing to acknowledge the heart in what we feel is most there, despite a jumble of things.

Sometimes the race ends – like we get to a sort of finish line, a marker in life, but no one sees what just happened to us, or what we just came through. The stands remain still and quiet we are there – breathing hard.

It’s at this point we mark ourselves ‘Present’ – finding that thing beyond space and time and our own funeral.

It is a Spirit most generous to let us breath along with passage through the veil, to all that was never made up!