Today marks Day 2 of #LifeInHonolulu – in starting my life, starting my life over, whatever you wanna call it, it’s starting to feel like all the same thing.
My astrologer back in April said that Saturn had moved into the first house of my chart (marked by my trip to coastal California mid-October last year) – auguring a pretty literal birth of my body, mind, and spirit. It’s a rare astrological reset that showed up in my chart.
He said everything needed to be reinvented. New hair, new body, new business card, new location, new brand, new everything.
So here I am, taking the advice and moving into my astrological coordinates. That is to say, in the cartographic location of my Moon’s north node. (Everyone has a North and South node in their astrological chart – the South node contains the themes of our past life experiences; the North node indicates themes we need to realize or promote in this lifetime.)
Having moved to Honolulu three days ago, I am still working with quite a bit of fear and anxiety which I have been mitigating through action: doing online research, reaching out to contacts, making time for lots of prayer, visualization, taking proper rest and food.
(Digressing just a little, the food here is amazing. Those half-an-hour trips I was taking to to go to H-Mart, the nearest Asian market in DC, are now a thing of the past. All the Asian goods I love are in every aisle in all the grocery stores here pretty much. A Chinese nutritional heaven!!)
Things I have to do are: buy a car, find a job, find a place to live, and I have to do it mostly on my own. I’ve done this once before in another country…I just need to keep reminding myself that I am wiser, stronger, and more dynamic than all the fears my mind is constantly recapitulating. What helps is to remind myself of all the gifts I have to give and all the ways I can serve people instead of feeling bogged down by the minutiae.
This morning… I opened my eyes at 6:30am. I woke up from a dream where I found soggy wads of money on the ground…
As I lay there in the dawn, various waves of feeling came over me, on a Soul level. This island of Oahu resonates with me on a level I can only barely explain here.
Driving away from the airport in the rental car shuttle as I was first taking in the views, I felt like I had been here before. It felt like I was coming into an alternate hometown of Washington, DC, the same home in a land somewhere else (to my mother’s dismay I’m sure). My first cousin Jennifer who lives here with her husband explained to me that this feeling was “the island welcoming me.”
Chinese medicine states that from the hours of 3am-7am of the Lung and Large Intestine officials in the element of Metal augment a thinner veil between the physical and the spiritual. Therefore spiritual guidance, strong intuitions, inner wisdom, dreams or grief we need to process, or stark spiritual encounters become more apparent at this time.
I wrote in my journal this morning:
I’ve been dreaming a lot. All the details of finding a place and living here feel overwhelming right now.
Yet it feels also surreal, like all these dreams I forgot I dreamed are resurfacing
Like a déjà vu that lasts for hours.
Dreams already dreamed, lives already lived.
I’ve already been here and dreamed in a life here. It feels like I’m walking into a layers of my existence.
It’s like watching a kid’s cartoon from your childhood and feeling everything you felt as a child when you first watched it flood back to you again.
Except it’s ongoing, and all these other things, being recalled.
Seeing your soul’s growth in slow motion and real time.
I’m experiencing a part of myself that is happening now and in the future and in the past,
and on and on.”
I’ll no doubt keep you in this loop as to what comes of this mysterious island in the Pacific Ocean – at this lunar coordinate of my life – so in the stars, so in the sea, finding my cove on the rock.
Check back again soon!! <3